It’s been 9 weeks since my SLAD/R surgery.
I’ve been hesitant to record anything or even write about my
progress because I am going through the changing voice stage, a “puberty” type
of change. One hour my voice is high,
the next hour it is deep, then it goes soft, and then it is froggy sounding at some
point.
After having a good voice for so many weeks I’ve noticed
that I have gotten very casual with my voice.
I forget that I do not have the capability at this point to produce much
volume so I try and it just sounds awful (to me). It is not a voice where there are spasms like
I had pre-SLAD/R surgery, it is just a raspy or froggy sounding voice. I haven’t liked this phase! I find it strange how we get used to
something so quickly, like my new voice, or adapting to having SD and dealing
with it, and now I expect my voice to be perfect every single day. It is not perfect.
My best sound is still with my voice amplifier (microphone)
that I use with teaching. By using this
I can talk really quiet and the sound is amplified and my voice is very
smooth. I do not use it at home though
and when I leave campus I leave the amplifier.
When I leave work, I will call out to people in the parking lot
to say good-bye and they cannot hear me, my voice just cannot get any volume
yet.
On a good note, it is really nice to be able to sing in
church. I have only mouthed the words
for years and now I really sing the songs.
I cannot sing any high notes and sound more like an alto, that’s okay
though, it is so nice to sing!!
I often take sips of water without a straw, I am fine doing
this but it is still easy to choke so I use a straw for most of what I
drink.
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